Speak the language that you understand - Ramsha Awan

hello there! It is 1:29 AM in holland right now, I am dead tired, I need to be up at about 10 ish but the thing is, i can't sleep. Too much on my mind so lets say, i feel like blogging :')
"Speak the language that you understand" is a quote writen by me! Impressive, i know :L
This quote means, do what you like and are good at. Don't do what someone else is good at and expects you to copy them! When you are 5, you do what your mom does, put on her red lipstick get on her high heels and walk through the house and yes you can hear the heels hitting the wooden floor, tak tak tak! 
when you turn 10 you try to act as if you are 15, get an iPod and pretend it is your phone? Like seriously, what is wrong with us.. I actually think it is just the girls that do that. But maybe boys do as well, not sure though. 
Anyway, yeah so you wear 'holister tops and  i dont know leggings and UGG boots' No honey, that is not meant for you. And then once we are 15, we act as if the whole world goes around us and do what we want (most of the time). We think we are right but at some points we realize we are wrong but just for the hell of the fun we continue which brings later in our life problems. 
be who you are, from inside. I love art. I paint. I love colours. I love fashion. I love drawing. I love make-up. I love writing stories. I wish I could write a novel someday and get it published.  And what am I thinking of doing in the future? Psychology:) Does that make any kind of sense? I hate science, biology, chemistry and physics and maths just don't work for me. I love art, I love english. Am I doing anything related to these both subjects? No. Why? Because I am doing what my parents wish me to do. 
That is the thing, our lives go on and we comperemise for the once we adore and they do the same in return. My father is someone I look up at and I am proud of, and same with my mother. Them two are my hero's. And sometimes it hurts to see that they are crying or are upset because of a little thing I did, yes sometimes I admit it gets on my nerves but most of the time it makes me cry. I am not a strong person, all of my blogs are actually for myself. I need to understand that everything happens for a reason. 
But speaking the language that I understand will not happen, I will speak the language that my parents want me to understand. And if you are in the same situation, go along with it and make the best of it. Life is too short to live with regrets, do what you want but keep the people around you happy. 

Love,
Ramsha xx